i hate the silence in these days
too much time to pick my way through my broken pieces
as i find the things that built me
like the fact that i really want someone to love me
but i don't know if i'm worth being loved in the end
or how i have a weakness for nice girls named mykala
i know i'm a broken vessel but that helps my light get out
without a doubt my scars tell my story
and my healed wounds tell a far more important story few will ever know
when i could be more than a weapon or tool
when i wasn't someone's everything but i could be a lot of things
like soft and warm and sweet
if my life were a story i wouldn't know where to start
i'v
She's the sunlight in my eyes
The tenderness in my touch
The part of me that loves everybody
But I'm still bad at goodbyes
And she can't stay with me forever
Yet I know we'll meet again
I can feel her finger prints on my heart
They pull me to her always
Like she has a gravity all her own
Pulling out the best in me as scars fade
So I guess you could say she's part of me today
Sneaking in for every warm hug
And helping me to love the world
As she holds onto me all soft and warm
And all I want is to hold onto her more
That an angel like her would choose me
With all my flawed facets
Like a jem to scarred to have a place
Yet I find her suns
I've had an interesting journey so far
with thick skin and a armor plated heart i survived
so cold on my good days i was like a terminator
following the old ways to fight and kill while remaining still lost
and on my worse days i turned into a ghost
feeling nothing at all costs
needless to say no one got close enough
to see the broken pieces in my machinery
and the pain always remained like an ache saying it shouldn't be this way
yet i was surviving then, not living
today i try to lose the armor
letting people into see a me few from then would recognize
with a bleeding heart that says come here my dear
only love no fear
embracing the world
i talk to god about you by mattbearcat, literature
Literature
i talk to god about you
i talk to god about you
i pray you keep loving the way you've taught me
you see i'm more than the broken soldier i became
my hands still know that life
but i've found so much more than the edge of a knife
i like to think you love a lot like god
when i'm tired and worn down i think of you
pulling me in so hard it almost hurts love
no fear only come here my dear kind of love
i know you'll always be here for me
saying it'll be okay as i get lost in your embrace
so i like to think god loves like you
that he is just so happy to see everyone
as we learn to let that kind of love shine through us
and you're such a bright light
yet i feel i don't g
i call her love
and she still doesn't seem to know how i feel
as i can't help but smile when i see her name
and we just giggle when we're caught out in the rain
she is love
the only one to really see me
as i walked through shadow and pain
yet she remains with a warm heart and beautiful soul
she's all i need
when she txts me my heart sings
to know an angel like her still care about me
as butterflies still take my heart by storm
she is beautiful
when god made her he cursed for the first time
she is that beautiful in all her silly quarks
and oh how i want to hold her all the more
she still saves me
as my world falls in she remains to pic
oh how i've missed you
from your sweet hazel eyes
to your cute little smile
it has been too long of a while
my dear i miss you terribly
i wish you could see your own beauty
the way sunlight bounces off your skin
and how i wish i could hold you
feel you lean into me like there might be something
as my time here draws to a close
and i'm left wondering if you know
how i've always wanted to kiss you
curious to how your lips would feel against mine
but i am shy and stupid
never quite getting close enough
yet you've always felt like home
like i should always come back to you
to see that smile again
as you're so surprised you almost cry
and wrap y
oh my blue eyed girl
half a world away
how I wish she were here today
I want to feel her hand against mine
the gentle touch of her head on my shoulder
and oh how I want to hold her
my sweet babe
I hope you never have to miss me
but i'm a soldier praying for war
and i'm gonna have to march out the door
you have my heart and soul
this world gets the rest on me
i'm sorry I won't be here for everything
i'll be with my brothers out at sea
and waiting for you to dream of me
so I can make you dizzy running loops through your mind
yet i'd rather get lost in your eyes
as I lean into kiss your perfect lips
drifting with you into utter bliss
if you asked me what i see
i'd say the most beautiful girl
form your deep deep eyes gentle and shy
to the beautiful brown hair i love to fall asleep against
yet you change it to no end
stop messing up perfection
with all your faults and scars
guiding you to who you are
as i see the protagonist of a story so much better than mine
strong and fair, courageous and curious
too smart to take a arrow to the knee
yet you think you need me
a soldier without a cause to follow
i'm out of wars to fight
yet you know i love you tonight
so lay still my dear
there is no need to fear
my will never break
as i walk with you so you're never alone
i'd do anythi
Shattered hearts for the war front
With blows that are never truly un-done
But wouldn’t it be fun
Existing as a dog of war again
Running with the pack down a path so new
Yet reminiscent of days when we weren’t so sharp
Days when pain actually meant something
Before we broke and made so many jagged edges
We were always weapons, the smaller bits just broke away
So who am i to say, I’m alive
With so many time when i should have died
Yet i’m not done here yet
I’m marked with works of the heart
Every scratch and scar a memory
And this battle field’s so unknown
Trenches run for miles as i can’t get out
Wit
I've missed you so much in these days
as we run through my dreams all night
just like the good old days before everything
when i could still call you mine
and find you were always at my side
holding on just enough i couldn't slip away
i wish you could be here today
wrapped in my arms like so long ago
when the world wasn't so dark
and i could still hold your heart
with your kiss at my finger tips
promising a time i'd never miss
you were the first person i missed
falling out of the bliss we made in that hurricane
knowing our flame wouldn't be blown out with wind or waves
and you know i'd fight for you until the end of every day
taking the p
i hate the silence in these days
too much time to pick my way through my broken pieces
as i find the things that built me
like the fact that i really want someone to love me
but i don't know if i'm worth being loved in the end
or how i have a weakness for nice girls named mykala
i know i'm a broken vessel but that helps my light get out
without a doubt my scars tell my story
and my healed wounds tell a far more important story few will ever know
when i could be more than a weapon or tool
when i wasn't someone's everything but i could be a lot of things
like soft and warm and sweet
if my life were a story i wouldn't know where to start
i'v
She's the sunlight in my eyes
The tenderness in my touch
The part of me that loves everybody
But I'm still bad at goodbyes
And she can't stay with me forever
Yet I know we'll meet again
I can feel her finger prints on my heart
They pull me to her always
Like she has a gravity all her own
Pulling out the best in me as scars fade
So I guess you could say she's part of me today
Sneaking in for every warm hug
And helping me to love the world
As she holds onto me all soft and warm
And all I want is to hold onto her more
That an angel like her would choose me
With all my flawed facets
Like a jem to scarred to have a place
Yet I find her suns
I've had an interesting journey so far
with thick skin and a armor plated heart i survived
so cold on my good days i was like a terminator
following the old ways to fight and kill while remaining still lost
and on my worse days i turned into a ghost
feeling nothing at all costs
needless to say no one got close enough
to see the broken pieces in my machinery
and the pain always remained like an ache saying it shouldn't be this way
yet i was surviving then, not living
today i try to lose the armor
letting people into see a me few from then would recognize
with a bleeding heart that says come here my dear
only love no fear
embracing the world
i talk to god about you by mattbearcat, literature
Literature
i talk to god about you
i talk to god about you
i pray you keep loving the way you've taught me
you see i'm more than the broken soldier i became
my hands still know that life
but i've found so much more than the edge of a knife
i like to think you love a lot like god
when i'm tired and worn down i think of you
pulling me in so hard it almost hurts love
no fear only come here my dear kind of love
i know you'll always be here for me
saying it'll be okay as i get lost in your embrace
so i like to think god loves like you
that he is just so happy to see everyone
as we learn to let that kind of love shine through us
and you're such a bright light
yet i feel i don't g
i call her love
and she still doesn't seem to know how i feel
as i can't help but smile when i see her name
and we just giggle when we're caught out in the rain
she is love
the only one to really see me
as i walked through shadow and pain
yet she remains with a warm heart and beautiful soul
she's all i need
when she txts me my heart sings
to know an angel like her still care about me
as butterflies still take my heart by storm
she is beautiful
when god made her he cursed for the first time
she is that beautiful in all her silly quarks
and oh how i want to hold her all the more
she still saves me
as my world falls in she remains to pic
oh how i've missed you
from your sweet hazel eyes
to your cute little smile
it has been too long of a while
my dear i miss you terribly
i wish you could see your own beauty
the way sunlight bounces off your skin
and how i wish i could hold you
feel you lean into me like there might be something
as my time here draws to a close
and i'm left wondering if you know
how i've always wanted to kiss you
curious to how your lips would feel against mine
but i am shy and stupid
never quite getting close enough
yet you've always felt like home
like i should always come back to you
to see that smile again
as you're so surprised you almost cry
and wrap y
oh my blue eyed girl
half a world away
how I wish she were here today
I want to feel her hand against mine
the gentle touch of her head on my shoulder
and oh how I want to hold her
my sweet babe
I hope you never have to miss me
but i'm a soldier praying for war
and i'm gonna have to march out the door
you have my heart and soul
this world gets the rest on me
i'm sorry I won't be here for everything
i'll be with my brothers out at sea
and waiting for you to dream of me
so I can make you dizzy running loops through your mind
yet i'd rather get lost in your eyes
as I lean into kiss your perfect lips
drifting with you into utter bliss
if you asked me what i see
i'd say the most beautiful girl
form your deep deep eyes gentle and shy
to the beautiful brown hair i love to fall asleep against
yet you change it to no end
stop messing up perfection
with all your faults and scars
guiding you to who you are
as i see the protagonist of a story so much better than mine
strong and fair, courageous and curious
too smart to take a arrow to the knee
yet you think you need me
a soldier without a cause to follow
i'm out of wars to fight
yet you know i love you tonight
so lay still my dear
there is no need to fear
my will never break
as i walk with you so you're never alone
i'd do anythi
Shattered hearts for the war front
With blows that are never truly un-done
But wouldn’t it be fun
Existing as a dog of war again
Running with the pack down a path so new
Yet reminiscent of days when we weren’t so sharp
Days when pain actually meant something
Before we broke and made so many jagged edges
We were always weapons, the smaller bits just broke away
So who am i to say, I’m alive
With so many time when i should have died
Yet i’m not done here yet
I’m marked with works of the heart
Every scratch and scar a memory
And this battle field’s so unknown
Trenches run for miles as i can’t get out
Wit
I've missed you so much in these days
as we run through my dreams all night
just like the good old days before everything
when i could still call you mine
and find you were always at my side
holding on just enough i couldn't slip away
i wish you could be here today
wrapped in my arms like so long ago
when the world wasn't so dark
and i could still hold your heart
with your kiss at my finger tips
promising a time i'd never miss
you were the first person i missed
falling out of the bliss we made in that hurricane
knowing our flame wouldn't be blown out with wind or waves
and you know i'd fight for you until the end of every day
taking the p
I've had an interesting journey so far
with thick skin and a armor plated heart i survived
so cold on my good days i was like a terminator
following the old ways to fight and kill while remaining still lost
and on my worse days i turned into a ghost
feeling nothing at all costs
needless to say no one got close enough
to see the broken pieces in my machinery
and the pain always remained like an ache saying it shouldn't be this way
yet i was surviving then, not living
today i try to lose the armor
letting people into see a me few from then would recognize
with a bleeding heart that says come here my dear
only love no fear
embracing the world